Moy big, What is WRONG with him? It is like he can't focus on anything passed this exact moment. That ringing in his ears is incessant.
The damp spot in his shirt is getting bigger and there's a definite green tinge to it.
Stukov forced himself to focus on Reinhardt's voice. He wasn't going anywhere...he was staying.
It was enough for the moment.
It allowed Alexei to at least find some mental ground to grip onto. He keeps his eyes tightly shut for a few seconds...focuses on his breathing...makes sure it evens out...doesn't move from the floor with his forehead still pressed to the cool, hard wood of the door.
There.
One more breath.
His thudding heart leaps to his throat when he hears that his knight would trust him...would believe he would not hurt him no matter what. No human has ever made that explicitly clear. There is always an air of suspicion and he could never blame them. He'd be the same.
Still...he could kiss Reinhardt for that and if his face wasn't threatening to leak slime all over everything, he would.
Stukov finally manages a faint smile.
"Thank you."
He's so grateful his knight has not left yet. Just knowing he's there...it is calming even if he can't have those strong arms around him at this exact moment...knowing they are there is enough to get him to settle at least a little.
Stukov still felt guilty...for beign such a coward. He's faced worse than this...but nothing had filled him with dumb horror and animal panic more than the thought of Reinhardt leaving him because of this.
The Crusader had given no indication from their previous interactions that he would...if anything, he often seemed amused at the inhuman elements of Alexei's life.
Still....
Still...it was not a risk that Stukov wanted to take.
So...so just do it already.
Order him away so he won't waste his time on the porch...but then they are back to square one. He would still see him in this...unflattering state.
"I...I won't do any such thing. I could never use my rank to order you away."
It is true. He would not.
"I just..."
He's afraid.
Alexei pokes at that growing damp spot with his human hand and it is unsettlingly warm.
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Date: 2017-12-25 05:16 am (UTC)Moy big, What is WRONG with him? It is like he can't focus on anything passed this exact moment. That ringing in his ears is incessant.
The damp spot in his shirt is getting bigger and there's a definite green tinge to it.
Stukov forced himself to focus on Reinhardt's voice. He wasn't going anywhere...he was staying.
It was enough for the moment.
It allowed Alexei to at least find some mental ground to grip onto. He keeps his eyes tightly shut for a few seconds...focuses on his breathing...makes sure it evens out...doesn't move from the floor with his forehead still pressed to the cool, hard wood of the door.
There.
One more breath.
His thudding heart leaps to his throat when he hears that his knight would trust him...would believe he would not hurt him no matter what. No human has ever made that explicitly clear. There is always an air of suspicion and he could never blame them. He'd be the same.
Still...he could kiss Reinhardt for that and if his face wasn't threatening to leak slime all over everything, he would.
Stukov finally manages a faint smile.
"Thank you."
He's so grateful his knight has not left yet. Just knowing he's there...it is calming even if he can't have those strong arms around him at this exact moment...knowing they are there is enough to get him to settle at least a little.
Stukov still felt guilty...for beign such a coward. He's faced worse than this...but nothing had filled him with dumb horror and animal panic more than the thought of Reinhardt leaving him because of this.
The Crusader had given no indication from their previous interactions that he would...if anything, he often seemed amused at the inhuman elements of Alexei's life.
Still....
Still...it was not a risk that Stukov wanted to take.
So...so just do it already.
Order him away so he won't waste his time on the porch...but then they are back to square one. He would still see him in this...unflattering state.
"I...I won't do any such thing. I could never use my rank to order you away."
It is true. He would not.
"I just..."
He's afraid.
Alexei pokes at that growing damp spot with his human hand and it is unsettlingly warm.
"I....can't."
Can't what?
A lot of things, apparently.